My Heart is Broken

I hate cancer.

I love, honor and serve my Savior,

the Lord Jesus Christ,
and understand and accept His plan,

but I hate cancer.

RivkA and I met through a mommy cancer blog,

and like many, I was drawn to her.

When she asked me to write for

Mothers Living with Cancer,

I was excited and honored.

But, also sad.

Because of the seriousness of most of their cancers,

I knew the title of the blog was hopeful,

at best.

RivkA is no longer

a Mother Living with Cancer,

and my heart is broken.

She was loving, she was funny, she was serious, she was smart,

she loved her family and she loved people.

Every moment and ounce of strength she had that escaped

the enemy cancer

she used for others.

This morning on her blog, Coffee and Chemo,  I learned the

Jewish blessing said after hearing of  somone's death.

Baruch Dayan HaEmet - Blessed is the True Judge.

It is appropriate for what I feel,

He is the True Judge.

I love Him,

I believe in Him,

I trust Him.

But, I hate cancer.

It Was Just A Little Lump

My husband and I had just moved from the Midwest to the Pacific Northwest with our six kids. In the midst of all the chaos my oldest daughter began suffering with daily headaches and I was plagued with a neck ache. It hurt to sleep, it hurt to stand, it hurt to sit with this nagging pain. We found a chiropractor in the new neighborhood and began going several times a week for adjustments.


In October 2004, after one of the treatments, I was massaging my relieved neck when I found it.

It was just a little lump.

Just a tiny little lump on the upper right side of my neck.




To read the rest of the story, please pop over to the newly launched blog Mothers Living With Cancer.

Although it is a community none of us planned on joining, ten moms with cancer have banded together to blog for  encouragement, friendship and support. We have various religions, geographical locations, educations, aspirations and dreams.

But, we all have cancer.

We all are moms.



Our blog states,

"Living with cancer is always a challenge.

Raising kids, while living with cancer,

is an even greater challenge.

Together, we can share our experiences, our concerns,

and our support.

Together, we are strong."

I would love to have you become a follower and support, encourage and pray us through our personal cancer journeys.  You all have been such an encouragement to me, I know you could bless others, as well.

Thank you for reading, thank you for praying, thank you for loving this mommy with cancer.