Didja' Ever Get Hit By a Mack Truck?

I was crying at my computer,

again.

Praying, reading the Word, writing

and longing for

answers

comfort

hope

help

strength.

It came from the heart of my15 year old son, Jon.

He heard my weeping and came in with a hug

and words of encouragement.

He promised

me the Lord would work all these things out.

He can promise me,

because the Lord promised first in His Word.

Sometimes, I forget.

He had just been to a Christian concert and remembered a song.

He pulled this up on YouTube and played it for me.

"The Hurt and The Healer"
Why?

The question that is never far away

The healing doesn’t come from the explained

Jesus please don’t let this go in vain

You’re all I have

All that remains

So here I am

What’s left of me

Where glory meets my suffering

I’m alive

Even though a part of me has died

You take my heart and breathe it back to life

I’ve fallen into Your arms open wide

When the hurt and the healer collide

Breathe

Sometimes I feel it’s all that I can do

Pain so deep that I can hardly move

Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You

Lord take hold and pull me through

So here I am

What’s left of me

Where glory meets my suffering

I’m alive

Even though a part of me has died

You take my heart and breathe it back to life

I’ve fallen into your arms open wide

When the hurt and the healer collide

It’s the moment when humanity

Is overcome by majesty

When grace is ushered in for good

And all our scars are understood

When mercy takes its rightful place

And all these questions fade away

When out of the weakness we must bow

And hear You say “It’s over now”

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died

You take my heart and breathe it back to life

I’ve fallen into your arms open wide

When The hurt and the healer collide

Jesus come and break my fear

Awake my heart and take my tears

Find Your glory even here

When the hurt and the healer collide

Jesus come and break my fear

Awake my heart and take my tears

Find Your glory even here

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It was a beautiful, encouraging song,

but I had to hear the story behind the song.

Some of my favorite quotes from Bart Millard's testimony~

"God is still bigger than this."

"I feel like I have more life in me right now than I ever have

because I'm thinking about the things that matter.

"The sad part is a lot of us have to go through devastating moments

to get to the point, this absolute collision with the healer,
to realize who we're supposed to be."

"We have all these questions,

but the truth is,

if they were explained to us,

the hurt would be the same."

This last thought was simple but profound.

Not too long ago I blogged about asking WHY.

But, even if I had the answers,

I'd still have the pain.

Are ya' feelin' like you got hit by a Mack truck?

Thanks to the encouragement from my son,

I understand my hurt has collided with the Healer.

If I really got hit by a Mack truck and survived,

I'd never be the same again.

I want that to be true with this suffering.

The pain proves the

 healing has begun.

I just can't let the pain

be in vain.