I've counted it over and over. It has been 17 days since my doctor visit. That makes three business weeks. It seems like years. I have checked the answering machine a few times, to make sure I didn't miss a message. I have checked the history of the phone calls, I have asked the kids every time I leave the house if the doctor has called.
I have called his office twice, so now am at the risk of annoying him and fear I will lessen my chance of a happy patient/doctor relationship. I am also trying not to be annoyed with him because I am finding his working definition of SOON doesn't match up with dictionary.com's definition.
-within a short period after this or that time, event, etc.
-before long; in the near future; at an early date
-promptly or quickly:
My life feels as if it is on hold. The decisions he makes could affect my entire next year in a vast way; but I am just another patient, another life, another phone call to make.
In the continued wait, I decided to pray more fervently for his decisions. Dr. E. does have four years of charts to weed through, equal years of labwork to peruse and, although I wish I were, I am NOT his only patient. I remind myself that all his other patients could have serious issues, too.
I am asking the Lord that He will give Dr. E. wisdom and understanding and I ask you to join me in praying for him.
As I was thinking about prayer this morning, the first verse that came to mind was in I Thessalonians 5:
16 ¶ Rejoice evermore.
17 Pray without ceasing.18 In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.
I am wondering to myself if this wait is more important than the answer, the Lord is giving me a chance to truly learn verse 16, to pray without ceasing. And, notice the two admonitions that it is neatly sandwiched between, to "rejoice evermore" and to "give thanks."
And, as I reread this blog, I am guilty of what my husband has preached about "Vitamin I Disease." Too much "I", not enough Him. If I thought only about my situation, I would be depressed, as we all would be with whatever the Lord is allowing in our lives.
If we think about Him, His righteous and loving character and His Holy Word and allow Him to answer our furtive prayers, in HIS time and in HIS way, our hearts truly can
-rejoice
-pray
-be thankful
May we all be praying without ceasing for whatever is troubling our hearts and minds today and praise Him for answering!
Jeremiah 33:3 Call unto me, and I will answer, and show you great and mighty things, which you know not.
Beautiful. Thank you.
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